I have been browsing the community, and am delighted to find so many books, ministries, and the wide variety of resources that everyone has created regarding trauma recovery.
I can see that my life has been an exercise in survival, and my education in ACEs was designed to teach me to teach the lessons I learned during the process of learning to build my own resilience.
In my younger days, I was an "old-school" Sunday School teacher, but my recovery has taught me that I am an artsy, crafty educator who writes and illustrates mental health curriculum for families with young children!!
That statement reflects my challenge of uncovering the identity that was tangled within the complexities of DID, and I am delighted to celebrate this portion of clarity with you today!
I have often felt shame as I engage in conversation with those who are academically and formally educated, but I can see that my "informal", divine education was designed to teach the lesson that I needed to learn about my relationship with Abba.
I was a fatherless, abused child, so it has taken a lot of time and effort on His part to convince me that He loves me and that He truly does have good plans for my life.
My thinking lines have been redesigned by the process of "working out my own salvation with fear and trembling." The most effective sermons have been those that took place when I was face-planted; flat on the floor, kicking, screaming, pounding my fists, spouting scripture through hot, angry tears as I wrestled with the Lord God Almighty.
Today, I just feel the need to say that I no longer feel ashamed to engage in the conversation about ACEs. The circumstances of my life don't define me, but my relationship with the God who rescued me does!!
I have LEARNED that I am a child of God.
I am loved. I am loved by God!!
I am an overcomer by the blood of the Lamb and the word of my testimony. For many years, I have been ashamed of the delivery of my testimony because my voice has been tainted by the tears of trauma.
I see me from a very different perspective today!! This community is a marvelous healing place, and I just want to say THANK YOU to everyone for bringing your voice, your stories, and your resources to this very modern table of meeting.
I am delighted to have discovered this community and just wanted to say thank you for speaking the truth in an atmosphere of so much love.
God bless you,