It wasn’t something I saw coming. I was pretty solid. I’d been at my job for twenty-seven years; owned my own home and really thought I knew what I was doing in this life. Then, out of the blue, I nearly died, then after taking time away from work, I returned to learn my assistant was getting fired. I was physically and emotionally being tested and I wasn’t up to the challenge. I had no choice but to step away. The problem was, once I’d rested and processed the shock and drama of it all, even with a great reputation, no one wanted to hire me.
Now I see this as divine intervention which had coincidentally began on Easter 2012. Scrambling to keep up I did a quick refi on my home, went on unemployment and kept looking but as nothing came about I realized I needed to make some serious changes. So I did. It started when I noticed I had a house packed with stuff, most of which I didn’t need, so I started letting things go. Then I decided to tackle my lifelong nemesis of weight, but I knew there was more to it for me diet and exercise, so I began hypnotherapy. Which was good because by now quite a few people were sure I’d lost my mind. By the end of the year I’d sold most everything I owned including my house and moved closer to my son, because I’d also realized what a terrible mother I’d been.
Hypnotherapy led me to discover exactly how much childhood trauma I’d endured and kept hidden. Food had replaced love in my life and my emotions had been shut down at an early age from some pretty painful experiences. I learned how I’d fallen into my life rather than chosen it because of my father’s influence. And knowing the root causes of my dysfunction helped me take responsibility for myself and my feelings. As each piece of the pain was processed and released I was being lifted out of the fog my life had been. I used each trigger that pushed me towards overeating as a clue to release more.
As a result, seven years later I have removed all of the repressed pain and am no longer triggered in a compulsive addictive way and as a bonus, I stumbled upon mindfulness. It seems once you do the work of freeing your subconscious of all the old emotional baggage, fear, insecurity and limiting beliefs from trauma and conditioning, you become conscious and far more spiritually connected. Mindfulness and happiness arrive once the fear from the past and the worry for the future are released, which, for me was a result of facing myself for the first time in my life.
During this time I became a certified life coach and I now work as an emotional wellness coach, helping others to pinpoint the core of dysfunctional behavior. I'm in the process of putting together some no cost workshops and course to help others learn how to do the work it took me so long to do, in a much shorted time.