Seems that others, like myself, do not know answers to my piece written earlier. My experiences with starting groups of survivors all seem to end in the same place. Yes, sexual abuse was awful but sex itself is so much fun and further, forget the shame of childhood abuse.. There must be someone or some group in this network that can facilitate a response to my query.. Maybe it is not possible to find that inner peace . Sexual abuse is common. Maybe an innocent interlude between the same sexes and how much fun. Is that abuse. My mother chose me as her surrogate; that is abuse but??