Having a conversation with others is so vital to both the understanding and for lack of a better term, acceptance of what was a childhood horror and present the experience both as a gift and a road map... Mostly I stumbled trying to make any sense of some of my behaviors and further got little or no understandings let alone acceptance.. One of the many tiny successes I find is the simple exploration of words on paper.. If any healing is to occur the words we used must be out there to flog; to embrace and to accept..