Mara, I get some of what you are feeling. The pain, the isolation not knowing where one is and how to get out of this dark hole. Each day is a struggle. But must say that I have found sharing on this forum very healing. Even though I live in India, our common history of childhood abuse dissolves the barriers of distance, race and other differences. It has been a year since I joined this group and have found it really healing. Alternately, you could also join some of the closed Facebook groups for PTSD.
Cissy. what a beautiful soul you are, always reaching out. Thanks for all the support.